the baby is moving around so much these days. i can feel it at certain times of the day and am starting to see a pattern. i am regretting calling it lazy which i did last week when it wasn't moving much. well, when i couldn't feel it moving much. now it's in there kicking up it's heels and dancing the night away.

d* can almost feel it. almost.

i am clearly nesting as well. i am getting obsessed with the nursery. but, in true form, it's all just about getting it over with. see, i realized i only have 4 months or so to get the room ready. and all i know is that i want to use this purple fabric i have.

and let me tell you, purple is not a popular nursery color. they REALLY want you to gender your baby ASAP. either that or give it some lame theme. the idea apparently is to rely on others to do the creative stuff for you.

anyway. so purple is not readily available. and all of a sudden, i need to have it all planned. because i am thinking about the damned thing all the time. and frankly, it is boring as shit.

like when i got married, i just wanted to make all the decisions at once so i could move on to thinking about more interesting things. i can't even read a book because i'm thinking "i wonder if that lavender crib skirt at pottery barn kids will match the fabric..." or whatever dumb ass thing keeps popping into my head.

i mean, i KNOW this is all dumb. but my head won't stop. so i figure the best way to stop it from continuing is to just make all the decisions. figure it all out and then i can stop thinking about it and read that marketing book from the marketing guy at coke.

plus, i will get my sister-in-law to stop whining at me that i haven't picked a good nursery theme since it is too difficult. except i looked at the ones she liked and let me tell you. i can't touch that stuff. high ick factor.

so i am going to providence this weekend to have my mom take me to pottery barn kids and look at their stuff. i need to touch fabrics. i am a touch person when it comes to fabric.

while i am there, i am picking up a car. yes. i am bending. i am getting a car. in new york city. where i clearly do not need one. and i can make all the excuses in the world for why i need it. but i don't. it will just make my life easier. i won't use it to commute. i won't use it to get groceries. but i will use it to take the baby to the beach and to the cape and to get bulk diapers from target. so sue me.

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