this red rest thing ain't for me. i am getting really tired of it already and i have anywhere up to 4 weeks to go. mostly i am tired of my husband because as much as he is trying to do, when it is convenient for him, he wants me to move around, and when it is not, he wants me to stay in bed.

like. if my working is getting annoying to him, he reminds me to stop. if the phone rings too much from friends, he complains that i spent all day on the phone but didn't rest.

but if he wants me to come look at the nursery or fold laundry or make my own lunch, it's fine for me not to relax.

truthfully, yesterday was stressful for no other reason than he was mad because i'd made a pedicure appointment and he drove me there and he hates to drive in brooklyn. nevermind that HE insisted. or that i could have EASILY taken a car service.

this is hard on him too, i know. he's tired and has to take care of a big pregnant whiny bed ridden person 24-7. and he wants to see the baby too. and he's worried. and i know this.

but i'm trying really hard here to "fake work" so i can get another month's rent out of the deal. i can pretend to work from home, meaning i can get a limited amount done and still have it look like i was working. as long as i work like 2-4 hours a day. and working pretty much means being on the phone and available.

the midwives say it is okay. AND my original plan was to take every friday off in june. so i worked 4 days this week and get paid for 5. then next week the same. and if the baby isn't here yet, and i can hang on, i can do 3 days that first week of july and get 2 paid holidays. then it's only 7 working days and i get paid for 10. i think that's a good deal, especially since as long as i am still working, i am still earning vacation time and so forth.

i'm not stressed about it but it's making HIM stressed which IN TURN makes me stressed.

so i just called into the office. 8 minutes of "work", 7 of which was me talking to my boss about c-sections.

this is what i am being paid for these days.

see why i want to keep it up?

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